The Browning Saga Continues in its last episode...
...at least for a while. Traumatic Brain Injury changes a person drastically! The most difficult changes are personality changes. Before the accident I never screamed; sure, I raised my voice when excited but when angered my voice softened and got quieter and quieter. Post accident I tend to raise my voice in anger. Whatever the reason; however right the value I am determined to defend; there is no excuse for screaming at my wife and children. None!
There is a medical explanation, however. An MRI of my brain shows that the nerve in the center of the brain providing communication between the left and right hemispheres, the logical and the emotion is a black hole. This nerve is necessary for the two lobes to share information. This will never happen again in my brain unless the Great Physician determines it so.
There is also another black hole or bruise on the memory center of my brain. There are three major black holes and hundreds of little ones all over my brain. These are irreversible until Resurrection Day and Jesus, in the twinkling of an eye, transforms this old and weak body He has determined to express His Life in and through here in Time on Earth. Only He can do such an amazing thing. May He turn many from sin to know Him through this surrendered voice as I speak His grace; beyond my daily failures and down right ‘screw-ups’!
My family has decided, after making good effort and troublesome attempts, they can no longer live with me. My doctors, our counselors, and friends whom we seek counsel from have stated to me time and time again that even if I am medicated this will not resolve the chaos within the walls of the Browning home. My mentor Dr. John Woodward and the president of Exchanged Life Ministries Colorado, Lee LeFebre have both encouraged me to continue teaching grace and walking with captives as our precious Lord sets them free. In connection with this is a mutual desire to see my medical team release me back into ministry (vocational work).
It is my intention that Gin and I remain united. It is my prayer and hope, that our great and mighty God, will heal our damaged emotions, deliver us from the Enemies division, and restore us in LOVE, respect and trust. It is my opinion that the accident last year has stolen from Gin and I our love, our trust, and our marriage. Romans 5:10 teaches that there are two parts to salvation. In Christ’s death we are saved from eternal hell. Hallelujah! In Christ LIFE we are saved from ‘hell on Earth’. We all need every bit of this deliverance! This is what faith is all about: believing in what is a reality in the Eternal that we have yet to experience on Earth in Time.
Currently, I am involved in a cognitive experience with my neuro-psych, cognitive therapist, and medical case manager to see if I am able to return to the ministry of NewHeart Expressions and if so, how? We know that the majority of my personal ministry with NewHeart Expressions will be conducted in public speaking, writing, training, and internet mentoring. Actual in-person discipleship/counseling is simply not possible because my brain is not reliable for such ministry, except on a very small scale. Internet or telephonic discipleship/counseling must be limited to 7 students or less. This is why I am working diligently to get an Exchanged Life Discipleship Course available on our website.
Folks, Jesus Life brought me out of the muck of lying, stealing, and homosexuality. I know He can bring me through the torment of being separated from my family; better yet, He can heal, deliver, and restore! Praise His Name!!!